When the SOA started, I was in Alexander the Great’s state of mind…conquer whatever I see, rape whatever it contains and loot it so that it can never stand up again. Well, maybe not that drastic but you get the idea. I was efficient in my studying – SOA classes in the day, one case written/marked/debriefed every night. It worked well for me, 1st decile in all the practice exams. The last week, I purposely took it easy – I did not want to get sick of studying and I felt I was in a good spot. I figured, dropping a decile or two wouldnt kill me. I ended up in the 2nd decile, didn’t really care as much and moved on.
Here’s the issue. This is the first week of me doing cases with my group – and its not the same as it was for the SOA. I’m almost ashamed to say this considering my competitive nature in everything I’ve done, but I just hate sitting down and looking at another case knowing the kind of crap I will encounter and finish losing more confidence than I had in the first place. The entire concept sickens me. And here I am, still moving along…2 cases a day. I even took Monday off, which is pretty bad considering it was the first day of our “self study” after the UFE course finished.
Today I took the morning off. So as you can tell, there is a problem. I need to bounce back – I need to refocus, and I need to build up my drive to kick the **** out of this exam. But I’m not sure where to start…BLAH
This process is so mentally exhausting, its frustrating. And i know, its made to weed out the week, blah blah blah, etc. I’m sure I’ll come out of it a better person and all that jazz, but dammit, it sucks to go through it.
Am I the only one feeling this, or are there more like me?
I leave all of you with this quote of Muhammad Ali…